The Awakening: A Decade of Healing, Wholeness and Remembering

A personal story of transformation, truth, and what it really means to come home to yourself.

It's been 10 years

The Call to Speak

It’s been a while since I’ve had the time or space to put pen to paper or fingers to keyboard. But writing is something I genuinely enjoy. Speaking and expressing myself is something I’ve only really embodied healthily over the past four or five years. It’s been a journey—a process. But the rewards-the depth, the clarity, the beauty—have been utterly life-changing across so many areas of my life.

Today, I want to speak to the power and the magnitude of the work we do on ourselves.

It’s not always easy to see the impact of healing when you’ve never known anything different, when there’s no context. No mirror. No real awareness. But this is what I want to share — the profound effect it’s had on my life. How what once felt heavy, chaotic, and unmanageable has softened into something magical. Something beautiful.

The deeper I’ve gone into this work, the more I’ve been able to see the pain we carry as people. As a society. As a collective. We are so out of alignment — disconnected not just from ourselves, but from each other, and from the deeper truth that sits quietly underneath all the noise.

And yet, on some level, we all know it. We all feel it. The ache. The restlessness. The longing. The quiet question: Is this really it?

Most of us are so caught up in the doing — becoming, achieving, striving — that we don’t stop to ask: Where is all of this coming from? Why does it matter so much? And where in my life am I not being honest with myself?

Honesty, I’ve found, is the biggest block in most of our lives.

When we’re dishonest with ourselves, we invalidate what we feel. We bypass our struggles. We minimise our pain. We say we’re fine. We say we’re coping. And in time, coping becomes normal. We normalise the disconnection. We normalise the dysfunction. We adjust ourselves to fit a reality that doesn’t serve us, then wonder why we feel so lost inside it.

That was me throughout my twenties — constantly chasing something. A dream, an idea, a goal. And while there’s nothing wrong with ambition, the truth is, I’d never stopped to ask: What am I really chasing?

Looking back, I see now that everything I was pursuing was rooted in a desire for connection. I just wanted to feel seen. I wanted to be acknowledged. I wanted to feel close to something, to someone, to myself. And I did everything I could to try and make that happen.

But it wasn’t until I turned 29 that everything changed.

I had what I can only describe as a deep awakening. A moment where a whole new world opened up inside me. It was sudden, it was profound, and in a single instant, I saw through the illusion I’d been living. I saw beyond my patterns, my pain, and my projections. And from that point on, nothing was ever the same again.

That moment — a flash of pure clarity — cracked something open in me. It revealed how much I’d been suffering. And how long I’d been carrying that suffering without even knowing it. I had normalised my pain and normalised the weight, normalised the stories. But in the light of that awakening, it all became so clear.

What followed wasn’t easy. The more I healed, the more I realised just how much trauma I’d been holding. All the suppressed emotions, all the buried grief, all the inherited pain — it started to rise. And for years, it poured out of me. I cried. I purged. I released. I peeled back the layers of an identity that had been built around survival, protection, and deep unconscious wounds.

I wasn’t just disconnected from myself — I was disconnected from reality. From the people around me. From the world I was living in. I was wearing a mask. Pretending. Avoiding. Escaping. And it hurt. Not just me, but the people I loved. The people who needed me to be something I couldn’t be — not because I didn’t care, but because I didn’t know how.

I look back now with deep compassion. Deep empathy. But I also carry a deep awareness of the harm I caused, especially to those closest to me.

This is the real work. Healing doesn’t just make your life better. It brings you face-to-face with the parts of you you’ve buried. The choices you’ve made. The pain you’ve caused. And through that process, you reclaim your power. You begin to see. You begin to feel. You begin to transform.

The Path of Transformation

When you look your pain in the eye, you no longer need to escape it. When you face the truth of who you are, the illusion falls away. And what’s left is real. Raw. Alive.

And it’s from that place that everything begins to change.

Almost a decade has passed since that moment of awakening. And while it was profound, it wasn’t the end — it was the beginning. The doorway. A glimpse into what was possible. Since then, I’ve been slowly putting myself back together — piece by piece, fragment by fragment — returning to wholeness. Returning to love.

And in doing so, I’ve learned how to see others truly. Not just in their brokenness, but also in their wholeness.

The last ten years have been devoted to healing myself. And through that, helping others to do the same. I’ve walked through fire. I’ve surrendered more times than I can count. But I’ve also stood in awe at the grace that’s moved through my life. The moments that broke me open. The wisdom that’s risen from the ruins.

No more broken relationships. No more carrying a broken self. No more hiding. No more shame.

What’s taken its place is something I could never have imagined — a deep, grounded gratitude for life. For God. For the divine intelligence that lives in all things. And an unshakable knowing that human suffering, while brutal, is also sacred. Because it can be transformed. It can be alchemised. It can become the path.

Healing, to me, is not just about living a good life. It’s about service. It’s about purpose. It’s about remembering. Remembering who you really are. And then living from that place.

Because how can I carry this wisdom and not share it? How can I witness this transformation and not offer it back to the world?

We are in a time of great change. Humanity is shifting. And now, more than ever, we need those who are ready to lead — not from ego, but from experience. From truth. From love.

We are the ones breaking the chains. We are the ones rewriting the story. We are the ones turning pain into power — and remembering, together, what it means to be whole.

The Wisdom We Pass On

The wisdom we pass on — to our children, to our communities, to our loved ones — that’s the legacy. Healing spreads like wildfire. And once it takes hold, once it builds momentum, it can change the entire world.

But let’s be honest. Healing is not easy. There’s no fast route. You are unravelling generations of trauma. Centuries of pain. Conditioning that lives not just in your mind, but in your bones. It takes courage.

But where there is courage, there is bravery. And those brave enough to honestly look at themselves — they are the ones who transform the world.

So if you’re reading this, and you feel that pull in your heart, follow it. Because it will lead you not only to the kingdom within, but to the truth of who you are.

And as we remember our origin, we bring that remembrance down to Earth. We embody it. We become it.

To remember your true nature — that is the real work.

Until next time, with all my love.

David